After getting involved with an unexpected BIG event like the FA Contest, I’m back to basics… Basics, I mean… Daily routines like: getting up early in the morning, going infront of the computer, eating breakfast infront of the computer… hahaha it’s not like I don’t have a job but honestly I’m a professional bum! Hahaha :lmao:… yet I don’t get enough sleep. I have my work at or rather I will be having my work at night… from 9PM until 6 in the morning… sheeesh! Tired! Thinking of it makes me more exhausted. Oh well! Got to make for a living or else my mom would sent me out and I have this teeny weenie problem… Looks like I’m loosing my motivation to reach my “so-called” ultimate dream… Before, I was like –> my spirit is willing but the flesh is weak but now, even my spirit is dying… Argh! Is that a bad sign? >,< and what I wanted was to become an astronaut, it’s silly but when I make this statement a joke it kinda feels like a small pinch in the heart. You feel sometimes that you’re already lost. You feel empty… that you don’t know how to react to things anymore; an overload. You thought from way back then that you have full control of your future but boohoo it’s just that some ass wipe prick will be controlling your life and your outcome as a contributor to this badly maintained country. Never having thoughts that you were once a genius hacker that can ruin his on-line banking transactions… hahahaha *kidding
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Currently I’m listening to “Death Cab for Cutie” song title “Underwater”.. I’m so like to soak myself in the water right now and never come out… Metanoia obsession –> I shall kill myself, but I will get punished… Naahhh! That’s the last thing I would do, just wanted to talk about it out loud so that my brain wouldn’t explode because of the sound wave repeating itself to be in slump. Sometimes I hate my brain.. Why does it function this way?! What influences I absorbed to think weird things like these. *Deep sigh, at times sighing really helps a lot… when you exhale, based on my theory, all the weird slot in your heart get filled in with air then after it will suck everything outside including all the burning that you feel. Come to think of it… Even the happiest person in the world when you isolate them in some place, they will be the one’s who’ll get freaky because of too much pain harrowing their heads…
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I’m not sure where this story leads… But that’s art right?! Sometime there’s no picture, many times there’s no story.. What is important is the intangible experience that you made… As what I told you before… so much of our experience is intangible. Words are just made to communicate, their dead.. only what our emotion would respond to the word that has been said is essential. Sorry, I have to go.. I have to throw up! Really I’m bulimic although I don’t know why?! I don’t have eating disorder before.. but now… errr knee-jerking… T_T
WOW… I’m in awe of their hands… It was really cool to know that there are young Filipino artists out there that has a unique sense of fashion and designing. The feeling of the designs were somehow surreal. If they read this they would definitely know what I mean. I really like their designs. It was closely professional, the only thing that went missing is a Fashion Designer Diploma so that you can call them pro! Well, I’m not a designer but I know how to judge who’s unique, original and appealing designs present upon the event. Nearly knocks down Atsuro Tayama!!! LOLs. And it was overwhelming to know that I’ve been part of the group. C-O-N-G-R-A-T-U-L-A-T-I-O-N-S winners!!! It’s a pleasure to have met you guys and I hope we keep in touch. See you next year, I enjoyed the event and probably join again next year (if there’s a next year)… hahaha ^^ What I like about the event is not the prize (well it’s the next best thing! hehe) but I’m gripped with meeting new people and seeing their designs L-I-V-E! I’m obsessed with the sensation I felt during the event… It’s priceless!!! ^^
"excerpts from my stereotypically half-used brain…"
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I find Richard Linklater movies rather smart ass-"ly" educational. Just completely viewed his latest movie adaptation from D-I-C-K, yeah Dick (with a capital "D") entitled "A Scanner Darkly" –> kind of watched it again… The story is crazi-ER than you think. A drug called "Substance D" is consuming almost half of NA’s population. You wouldn’t die if you take too much of it so no one dies of OD, mostly dies because they decapitate eachother. You would just have too much of hallucination that you will see a strange alien-like creature that would read the entire peccadillo (sounds like food) that you made in the past, well in short all the morality offenses that you did for, uhmm a thousand years til it reached your 6th grade offenses so it meant that the alien-like creature will have to read your transgressions for eternity. Oh well… at the end of the movie you would discover that (SPOILER ALERT!) the people behind the production of the SD pills were actually the government itself. It was in fact a "smart" move that they thought it all out. The plan I mean. The arrangement was the drug shouldn’t kill a person just get you euphorically high (if you take too much of it) and… doubtfully those who were involved from the drug scheme will just have to be placed in detention centers and be rehabilitated, same goes for the drug dealers. Some of the chosen victims of the drugs will be relocated upon an agricultural corn field in which they will be assigned to take care of the crop. Not knowing that the following corn field was just a concealment of an underground plot. The growing of blue bell flower, cultivation of Substance D. After watching the movie… You would despise your own specie. Despise the humans.
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Despise humans… WHY? If you look closely, I mean contradictory to what I just said; if you look at it as a whole… errr >,< I’m implying that if you think intensely (if that’s the right term) humans actually belong to the helminthes family. We are parasites. Parasitism –> a phenomenon in which two organisms which are phylogenetically unrelated co-exist over a prolonged period of time, usually their entire life. The requirement for a prolonged interaction precludes predatory or episodic interactions. We are p-a-r-a-s-i-t-e-s of this planet. We depend on devouring everything that natural planet phenomena produce (if you can call it that). So what is our right to act boorishly among eachother? I mean (putang ina nyong lahat wala kayong karapatan, palamunin kayo ng mundo!!!) Luckily for us, we were chosen to live in a nicely looking planet that has an excellent environment for human evolution. Sad to think that human evolution ends here because we prioritize sabotaging the growth of biological cells. I’ am indicating that cells are massively damaged by the following technologies invented. Technologies like: cars (carbon monoxide), planes, microwave, the fridge (CFC’s), C-O-M-P-U-T-E-R (that actually devours you, makes all the hemispheres of your brain fucked-up, like what I’m experiencing right now) :lmao:… what I’m trying to say is: why most of the people just think of themselves and the progress of their individualities when we are just a mere parasite of this universe? Megalomaniac ass wipes.. (puki ng ina!!!) I’m not MAD, I’m just explaining… I’m perplexed! >,< I’m confused!!! >,<
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to be continued…
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NOTE: Did you know that when a person dies or (whatever biological living thing) dies it actually contributes for the survival of this planet? Not just "a" contribution upon lessening the world’s population, but a cadaver secretes chemicals that helps to balance the elements of planet Earth… ^^ (that is if the SUN will not die 50 billion years from now…)
"excerpts from Waking Life…"
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What is, like, frustration? Or what is anger or love?
When I say "love,"
the sound comes out of my mouth…
and it hits the other person’s ear,
travels through this Byzantine conduit in their brain,
you know, through their memories of love or lack of love,
and they register what I’m saying and say yes, they understand.
But how do I know they understand? Because words are inert.
They’re just symbols. They’re dead, you know?
And so much of our experience is intangible.
So much of what we perceive cannot be expressed. It’s unspeakable.
And yet, you know, when we communicate with one another,
and we–
we feel that we have connected,
and we think that we’re understood,
I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion.
And that feeling might be transient, but I think it’s what we live for.
If we’re looking at the highlights of human development,
you have to look at the evolution of the organism…
and then at the development of its interaction with the environment.
Evolution of the organism will begin with the evolution of life…
perceived through the hominid…
coming to the evolution of mankind.
Neanderthal, Cro-Magnon man.
Now, interestingly, what you’re looking at here are three strings:
biological, anthropological–
development of the cities, cultures–
and cultural, which is human expression.
Now, what you’ve seen here is the evolution of populations,
not so much the evolution of individuals.
And in addition, if you look at the time scales that’s involved here–
two billion years for life,
six million years for the hominid,
years for mankind as we know it–
you’re beginning to see the telescoping nature of the evolutionary paradigm.
And then when you get to agricultural,
when you get to scientific revolution and industrial revolution,
you’re looking at years, years, years.
You’re seeing a further telescoping of this evolutionary time.
What that means is that as we go through the new evolution,
it’s gonna telescope to the point we should be able to see it manifest itself…
within our lifetime, within this generation.
The new evolution stems from information,
and it stems from two types of information: digital and analog.
The digital is artificial intelligence.
The analog results from molecular biology, the cloning of the organism.
And you knit the two together with neurobiology.
Before on the old evolutionary paradigm,
one would die and the other would grow and dominate.
But under the new paradigm, they would exist…
as a mutually supportive, noncompetitive grouping.
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to be continued…
I’m planning to join the ASCII Art contest on DeviantArt.com although I find it very time consuming on my part I’ll still go for it and I haven’t even thought about a subject yet. May be I could make Leonardo da Vinci as my piece, he’s I think the God of codes, hehe *scratches head… is he?
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For ASCII Art details link here –>
What’s ASCII?
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I’m not sure if they would allow an ASCII Art with colors because most of the ASCII Art is in Black and White text mode. I hope they will. I’m sure going to show them what I’ve got. What kind of hacker I’am?! XDXD :lmao:
Here’s a sample I made…
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Here’s a colored version of ASCII Art
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Waaaaahhh! I still wanna join this fu%$#ng contest… I like Non-Existent art…
If you want to know more about the contest click the link below:
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Deviant News
*deep sigh… Just watched the movie "STAY" starring Ewan McGregor, Naomi Watts and Ryan Gosling. The film is simple yet I was totally captivated by the essence of the storyline. At first for some that doesn’t have patience like mine (regarding watching movies and such.. :wink:) you would be really bored but as the story evolves it’s actually quite interesting. Well, the story goes like this… A psychiatrist played by Ewan McGregor has a suicidal patient played by Ryan Gosling. Gosling is a very good art student and he was just being in vain of everything that he wanted to take his own life. He even told his doctor (McGregor) that he would kill himself on Saturday mid-night. Shoot himself pointblank on the head. Worried sick McGregor chases Gosling and did a little research about his family background. He wandered of to Goslings mom that was believed to be already dead but the doctor could not believe anyone for he has seen Gosling’s mom in flesh. You really could not exactly describe the story and tell the plot step by step because the feel of the movie is surreal, mainly unexplainable. You would just feel it… What I like about this movie is the feel and learning the phase of a dying person. Hallucinations, dreams, denial… all of these elements were being shown by this film. I love each and every segment of this movie. I would definitely include this on my collection.. ^^
